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  • Paperback
  • ISBN 9780142412299
  • 320 Pages
  • Speak
  • 12 and up


Why’d I do it? I suppose it’s the only question that really matters.

Seventeen-year-old Crow will stop at nothing to protect her younger sister—even if it costs her her own life. But then she’s given a chance to come back and make things right. There are a few catches, though. First, she won’t come back as herself. And before she can set things straight, she’ll have to figure out what’s what—and things aren’t exactly as clear-cut as she remembered.

Powerful and hard-hitting, this is a compelling story about what it means to live your life—for your own sake—from an award-winning author.


Praise for Jonathan Friesen:

“Emotionally rewarding.”
VOYA, on Jerk

SLJ, on Jerk

“Debut author Friesen has Tourette syndrome, and he brings complexity and nuance to Sam’s struggle for understanding and self-acceptance. . . . [L]ike any good road story, there are enough corners and bends to keep readers eagerly anticipating what lies ahead at the journey’s end.”
Booklist, on Jerk

“Friesen’s thrill ride benefits from its unusual setting and its pulse-pounding action (and romance!), making it go down like a six-pack of Red Bull.”
Booklist, on Rush

“Get ready to have your breath catch in your throat or to be taken away.”
VOYA, on Rush
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